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Yesterday afternoon was the worst afternoon I have experienced  at Studio-GameOn. Not through any one incident, but from sheer exhaustion. I am struggling to meet my own work expectations of the paperwork side of Studio Manager, while being there for the team as well. I never anticipated that writing so many positive emails to the team would be so emotionally draining along with the long hours, all have lead to me hitting a brick wall. What I do realise now is that I have been neglecting to prepare myself. (Note to self: next time writing emails of encouragement- write one to self) It is so easy to fall into this trap.
I have been coming into uni early, and now even the cleaners know who I am and let me into the building. I find I get a lot more done before the team arrive and it allows me to spend more time with them making sure that they are doing OK. It would therefore be smart to go to bed early, however there is always just one more email or notes I need to make, which is not very productive while falling to sleep at 11 o’clock.
While it may be good writing these emails of thanks to the team, I am struggling how to say thanks to my direct reports (without as one member of the team has put it, as sucking up) Jane and Lubi have been very supportive and encouraging and I don’t think you could ever say thanks enough for all they have done, not only for the Studio but for QUT and the Gaming Industry in general. They are absolutely amazing women and are the best role models a person could ever look for.
What I can learn from how I feel is, I don’t want my team to feel this way. I want them to know that they are supported no matter what. They have all been working so well and I am proud of them and because of that, no matter what the outcome of the game I have even more respect for their individual qualities, knowing they have given their all. I will come into uni even earlier while I am awake and alert, if that what it takes to get my work done, but I will never leave them to deal with this alone. I just need to be more productive with my time and get some sleep.
We all need each other to work together, now more than ever. The bond between the team is growing even more and it is a real privilege to watch and  be apart of.
To those who think this is a ‘suck up’…wrong.
I am 100% dedicated, 100% passionate, 100% caring and 100% me and I make no apologies for that.

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